I love butter

…and chocolate chip cookies, cheese, potatoes, bread, did I mention butter? Paula Deen and I definitely have that in common!  Oh, the list just goes straight to hell from there! I’ve been really remiss in writing on this blog, not for a lack of “want to” but sometimes life just gets in the way. The last two months have been OK- you notice I did not say great. I’ve lost 26 as long as I weight 1st thing in the morning, completely naked and shift my weight to my heels otherwise it’s probably about 23.5 lbs. since I started this journey.

The holidays were hell and personally i’m glad they’re over. I’ll be honest and admit that I’ve  given in to every dessert, casserole, and bottle glass of champagne that has been offered. At Christmas my Granny decided that I needed to learn to make her Chocolate pie and Lord help me because I dream about it night.

My saving grace (and the only reason I have not gained 10 lbs.) is because I have kept up with my workouts at least 80% of the time we won’t mention those several mornings that I could not drag my tired, lazy ass out of bed. Seriously, working out has saved me!

Despite my total fall from grace, i’m getting back on the wagon. Tonight I had salad, Lean Cuisine and Skinny Cow for dinner. That may sound like a lot but believe me it’s a 2000% improvement from where I was one week ago.

Jan 1st starts the countdown and I have  79 days till the wedding . I’m determined plus I ordered the dress 3 sizes too small that i’m going to get back on the “healthy path” and when I walk down that isle (as a bridesmaid, of course) i’m going to feel good about my accomplishments!

True Confessions

1. I feel off the food bandwagon several times. I blame mexican food…seriously, it’s evil and has its hooks in me.

2. I skipped boot camp every day last week. I had the best of intentions to go this morning but it was rained out.

3. I weighted last Thursday and somehow managed to have lost 3 lbs. With the way I have been eating i’m convinced I must have a tape worm.

4.  I’m already dreading Halloween on Saturday night because it has the potential to be a real calorie doozie (cupcakes, candy & chocolate)!

5. If you can’t tell from 1-4, I seem to be in a slump. My mood is like the weather, dark & dreary.

True Confessions

1. Last Thursday my step-moms dad passed away and I spent all of last weekend attending the visitation, funeral, etc… On that note I think that “visitations” where everybody parades by to look at the person who has passed are totally creepy and beg of my family & friends to never have one for me. Seriously, have a party, go on a vacation in honor of me but please DO NOT have an open casket at my funeral.

2. I went to boot camp three days last week! Holla!

3. I ate dessert three times last week and each time I felt more guilty than the last. It’s obvious that I need more willpower to say no to homemade peanut butter-oatmeal-chocolate chip cookies.

4. I still hate the bad haircut I got two weeks ago.

5. I need to do some serious soul searching and decision making in the “boyfriend” department. It’s been 10 long years and I still don’t know if it’s going to work.

Weigh In #2

I really wish that I was a better person and I could happier about loosing 2.5 lbs. I’m sure that’s great and all but when I read the scale this morning my heart sank. I have not cheated at all over the last 2 weeks and have been exercising like a crazy person and all I have to show for it is 2.5 lbs. Maybe i’m being bitchy but i’ve got to figure out what i’m missing!

Ideas? Thoughts? Suggestions? All are welcome!

True Confessions

Normally on Mondays I would weigh in however this week i’m going to change things up a bit. I’m trying to get more inline with the girls over at Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans so that I can keep my schedule with theirs (more accountability)!!

Let the confessions begin…

1. I have not weighed in almost three weeks and i’m really nervous about Wednesday.

2. I have done a really great job of eating healthy but I totally suck a writing down what I eat. I know it’s important but can’t seem to keep the log on an ongoing basis.

3. My Granny turned 82 on Sunday and I spent the weekend in East Texas celebrating her birthday with all of my family. I stayed on my diet all weekend except for 3 bites of cake… that is a miracle!

4. I started boot camp last week and it’s totally kicking my ass!

5. One day last week I literally had to force myself to go home and eat a snack vs. driving thru Wataburger.

6. On Thursday I got the worst haircut EVER !

Yummy Pasta!

I don’t have much time today for the long post that I wanted to write but I wanted to share this really quick. I made an easy pasta last night that turned out really good and it’s healthy!

What you need:

1 box of Barilla Plus Whole Grain Thin Spaghetti

1 bunch of asparagus (you just use the tips)

1 head of broccoli (just use the florets)

1 Roma tomato (diced)

1 Tbs. minced garlic

Olive oil

Parmesan Cheese

Boil your spaghetti like the package says, drain and set aside. Satue the brocoli, asparagus and garlic in pan (add some olive oil- about a Tbs.) for about 5 minutes depending on how crunchy you like your veggies. When that’s done add the pasta to the veggies, plus another Tbs. of olive oil and heat for another minute. Sprinkle parmesan cheese on top and viola you have yummy healthy pasta!

P.s. This may or may not be an original recipe but I have never seen this exact one in any cookbook. It was concocted out of hunger and the ingredients in my refrigerator and pantry!

P.s.s. I have always shied away from whole wheat pasta because it tastes grainy even when cooked. However, this was my first time to try this brand and it was really good.

Cheeseburger Dreams

Yesterday I made the mistake of weighing myself and I have only lost 1 lb. since Monday . The rational side of me knows that it’s totally unrealistic to lose 10 lbs. per week the other part of me thinks that it sucks that the scale was only a lb. lighter today. The main reason for that is that i’m starving. Literally, for the last two days I have been hungry all day. I’m eating three meals a day and last week I was fine but now I feel like my body is totally pissed off at me and wants food! Is this just some weird thing that happens, I have no idea? I talked to my mom today and she said that I probably need to drink more water and go for a walk when I get hungry. She’s probably right but still i’m hungry. I know that in order to lose the weight I need to eat less than 1,300 calories per day and i’m trying to eat foods that give me as much bang for my buck as possible but right now I have hit a point where it’s definitely mind over matter. So far, I have not given in and eaten the cheeseburger that i’ve dreamed about and i’m just hoping with fingers-crossed that tomorrow i’ll feel better!

My own personal hell

One of my weight loss goals is to lose 60 lbs. by next March. 8 months, 50 lbs…Yes, I will succeed!  The reason for this particular date is because I am once again a bridesmaid! This whole *bridesmaid gig* started 8 years and since that time I have been in 6 weddings and the one in March will make 7.

I am tired of being of a bridesmaid!

I’m sure you’re thinking that I am a horrible, bitchy, person which is only the truth about 10% of the time…thankyouverymuch! But the other 90% of the time that’s far from the truth. I adore my friends and am loyal to a fault. For example, I will spend my rent money on things such as hosting wedding showers, bridesmaid dresses- you get the point. Don’t get me wrong, i’m honored to have lots of wonderful friends many of which I have known since I was in diapers and some of who I met in Austin that I would not trade for anything. I just wish they would all get married already so we can get on with our lives !!!!

(Sorry this post is rambling so bear with me)

Back to be being a March bridesmaid. Everything was moving along swimmingly, no Bridezilla problems (yet-it’s still early), etc… until last week when one of the other bridesmaids announces that she is pregnant. Guess what this means? We have to pick another dress because the one the bride originally selected won’t work for a girl that’s going to be 8 months pregnant walking down the isle. And so the saga begins… to make a really long and frustrating story short, 30 emails, 15 dresses and several glasses of wine later…tada, here you have dress #7.

Speaking of dresses, I have worn them all in every color and style you can imagine! Seriously we’re talking all the way from lavender satin to pepto bismol pink chiffon and just about everything in between. In fact, I recently sold them all in a garage sale for $2 each- good riddance! I will give major props to Yasmine for letting us pick our own dresses (NOTE: If you’re reading this and you’re getting married, you’re bridesmaids will LOVE you forever if you let them pick their own dress!). We all have to remember that everybody is special and we all come in different shapes and sizes…that means that these DD’s don’t like strapless! Enough said! If I hear one more bride say “I like this dress because you will be able to wear it again” I will not be responsible for my actions!

P.s. In other diet related news I have been hungry all day and I gained 1 lb. from yesterday to today. I have no idea why and it’s depressing…

Weigh In #1

I’ll be the first to admit that when I stepped on that scale this morning my heart was racing! I have done everything that I set out to this week but it’s not as if I miraculously feel 10 lbs. skinnier or anything. When those 3 numbers appeared I was deliriously happy!

I know that every week won’t be a 10 lb. loss but it’s nice at first because i’m an *instant gratification* girl and this will motivate me…well, at least until next week!

(Net loss=10 lbs.)

Ice Cream & Pickles

I know that ice cream and pickles sounds like something that a pregnant person would crave but let me assure you that I am NOT pregnant!

I take back every bad word I ever said about Skinny Cow ice cream because honestly I don’t know how I would have made it through this week without their vanilla and carmel cones. I love sweets and one bar is only 150 calories so I have had 1 per day and it kills the urge to eat a dozen chocolate chip cookies. In my book that calls for hero worship!

Regarding the pickels, I know they have lots of sodium but they are tasty and at only 5 calories per pickle, I can have two as an afternoon snack. Plus they are crunchy and for some weird reason I like food that crunches

So far these are my snacks of choice but if you have something else that worked for you, i’m all ears!